The unsung diary girl

She dusted her old diary from her long treasured safe.
 The dust clouded her mind with visions slightly blur and muddling thoughts. 
Then, love was so dear and inseparable yet she began to write him like an old story. 
Like a phantom in the twisted nightmare of some lost soul, she begin to meander through the never failing memories churning in her heart. 
She recalled the once-full spot he inhabited in her heart that lies like a untended vacuum now. 
She muttered, "yes, people can change for better, worse, for nothing, never staying the same. Have I not change?" 
For she felt the first love she gave was a test and a test she failed, a test to get over it and move on. 
She flips pages after pages and in it she lives on every sweet words resounding as fresh as the first time she heard him tell her. 

Oh...memories...she sigh! 
Love was sweet as honey'd flavor because in her love lies a true heart. 
She tried to figure out what went wrong. She was in love deeply with a man she called her future, her world was changed and to her, he was the handsomest man both inside out
But  so intoxicated that she failed to sense he could be one ugliest man a woman could ever have.
 She gave him all of her heart and now she stood still with countless doubts and denial. 
She murmured again, "..but I loved him with dearly.." but he took every word out and left her speechless. 

She laughed loud and that turned to tears of wilderness for she still don't understand what happened.
 Till the last leaf of her diary she retrospect. It was then she realised long years ago, she penned down on the last leaf about her only love.
 With smiles of tears and lingering memories, she closed her unsung diary and so do her heart.