The greys of Anesthetic surgery

As I woke up to the chilling morning with heavy rainfall
I could feel the cold chill of pain in my bones from my hip down
Oh! That numbness of my body and the excruciating pains hasn’t be the first
The breath taking experience of my Cesarean section for my son’s delivery flashed in like it was yesterday
Then I begin to think of writing about it particularly this weekend 
It’s been two and half years almost since I have had C-section
I remember every detail vividly: the cuts, the stitches, the pulls, the suctions, the sound of the blades slicing each layer in my body.
Then again I remember how, some of my kins were pretty concern over the entire course of my delivery-
Like so concern about me that on the fifth day after I had one the most major surgery, they asked me if I would be able to bear any more children if I ever want in future.
I thought they came to meet me to ask if my pains were too unbearable or how I have felt!

But I understand! People do worry about their generations’ and their family trees at times

What amazed me then was thinking , how do people take this process so lightly?
They talk like C-section was a fun trip or a free tour package where I had chosen the most fantastic destination.
Some are still like “Try to deliver normal next time (if) because C-section may be less painful at first but not for life long”.
Like they know what a nightmare it was for a mother to have no choice but to bring the baby safe on earth.
For those of us who still have the misconceptions about C – Section: It may not be a choice for many mothers.
Like me, I would not have compromise to risk the life of the child I carried and grew along with each single day for nine months.
If it takes anything, even my life, to bring my child on earth, I will.
C- Section is not a multiple choice of destination for a fun trip
No woman on earth would ever want their normal fit body to be sliced and get a permanent scar.
Forget about permanent scar or the outer ugliness, no one would love to accept pains if tagged for a life long after C-section
But why did they opt to do that?
It is not how you may be describing it: easy, pain free and comfortable, they didn’t have a choice
So pain, tears, nightmares and life- taking surgery was nothing as compared to her love for the child she carried for nine whole months
So if you have someone who have had gone through this
The next time you hear them sharing her c-section experience
Listen to her story, try to step in her shoes, try to feel like she did and...
Please stop advising her how to deliver normal next time, she had gone through a lot of pain and she still carries it.
She had no choice but to bring her joy , her child on earth.
Please stop assuming that she had c-section to cross path normal delivery and that normal delivery is the best
She might have gone through real traumatizing moment thinking about the pains she felt as she lied awake in the operating table- hearing each cuts on her
She needs time to heal from the traumas, she need to let her body rest, she need to be cared and she need to be loved and understood more.
Because no  one have any ideas about the physical pains that follows and the anesthesia effect hence forth